I haven't posted in a few days because I've been very busy. We finally got carpet in rest of the upstairs of our house, so I have been doing a final deep cleaning of the upstairs so that I can (finally) put things in the rooms up there! We moved into a new home about four months ago, and two of the bedrooms were not finished. It is an old farmhouse, and a work in progress, but we are renting from my grandpa, so we have an awesome landlord who takes great care of us! :)
I also have been working a lot, I work at Dairy Queen currently, and lots of people want ice cream despite the fact that we have about 10 inches of snow and sub-zero weather! This week is midterms for me as well, so I've been attached to my Anatomy and Physiology textbook whenever possible. I must admit, I am busier than most people, but I really love everything that I do, and each of the aspects of my life connect, so I can't give up anything, though some days when my skin is really bothering me, I would like to! I have to work to support my son, I have to study so that I can get a degree and get a better job to support us, I obviously have to care for him and my home and my fiance, so even on my most exhausted days, I push through, because I know that the pain and exhaustion is only temporary, and there is a much brighter future ahead!
Recently a LOT of people, particularly customers at work, have been commenting on/asking questions about my skin. Mostly they assume it is sunburn, but it really irks me that a complete stranger would comment on another person's appearance like that. It's nowhere near as bad as when I worked at Walmart a few years ago, the fluorescent lights made me look even redder than usual, and almost every customer who came through my checkout line would comment. It really wears you down to have to keep explaining it, or more often in my case, making excuses. It's something that I know most people won't understand, so I just say I stayed in the tanning bed too long.
I am so glad I started this blog, it is nice to know that even if only a couple people read this, they are people who truly understand what I am going through. I have spent far too many nights crying in bed and saying "Why me? I can't be the only one going through this.."